Potential
New Year's always strikes me as a time of potential. There's a whole new year out there without any record if fucking up. Of course, I know I will, but it never seems to matter when I'm standing outside watching my breath fog and freeze in the cold darkness of the first few minutes of the new year.
I don't really believe in making resolutions. I generally break them and then feel terribly guilty over the whole affair. Instead, I've compiled a list of things I'd like to do, or change, without the impetus of having to do them.
1. Blog more. I'd like to blog two or three times a week this coming year. It always seems like a giant ordeal to blog something, though. I have to download pictures from the camera, convert them from .raw to .png, resize and edit them, upload them to Flickr, and then write the entry. Usually, I just sigh and read my blogroll again. To prevent this, I'd like to take a day, like Sunday evening, and do all that. Not blog or anything, but just get stuff ready for the coming week of blogging. Maybe it'll help.
2. Change the layout. Blame Eponine for this one. I don't like using pre-made layouts anyway, and this one was supposed to be a stopgap until I managed to make one for myself. I also hate that this one isn't wide enough to deal with the width of Flickr's standard horizontal picture width. So, a new one is in the offing, even as we speak.
3. Draw every day. Even if it's just sketching a girl's face or two. I miss doing it, and I'm afraid that after a semester with no drawing classes, I've backslid.
4. Get my art-site up and running; I need a digital portfolio. And I've paid for all that stuff, so it's dumb to waste it.
5. Knit every day. I have been knitting, of course, but I haven't really been documenting it, and I hate that. I'm halfway through a pair of Clessidra knee-socks and I have. no. pictures. Must remedy that.
6. Wash my face every night. I don't know if it's because my mom's accident happened before I really needed to start washing my face, or if it's because I've always been lax about bedtime rituals (sometimes I forget to brush my teeth, don't hate me!) but I almost never do this. I have been, for about ten days, though, and I can really see a difference. My skin is softer and less prone to get spots (I think; it's still a bit early to tell). Concurrent with this goal is the next one:
6a. Wear makeup every day. If I don't, it's to easy for me to justify not washing my face. "I didn't wear makeup, I don't really have to..." And, makeup makes me feel pretty and special, and I kind of love experimenting, so. Makeup every day.
7. Do more tea reviews. I liked them, and it gave me an excuse to buy different teas, so I want to do that some more.
8. Figure out what I'd like to do with my life. I know this sounds huge, and it kind of is, but I only have a year of school left, and I need to make some decisions. I've felt for a long time that it would be a toss-up between art (freelance illustration) and yarn (owning my own store, eventually) and I need to flip that proverbial coin. I don't feel like there's enough room in my life to do both professionally, and I need to figure out which I want to do. The other will, of course, remain a hobby, and there's no rule, even in my head, that says I can't change my mind down the road, but I feel like I need some direction in my career-life.
9. Make some hot cocoa. Like, right now. My poor widdle fingers are freezing!
And, so as not to leave this post image-less, here's a picture of the cats' Christmas present to me: suffering me to put ribbons on them and then letting me take five or six pictures before they freaked right out.

ps: I got all A's this semester. Cumulative GPA: 3.43, semester GPA: 3.916. If I keep this up, I could graduate cum laude. Far cry from graduating 140th out of 200 in high school, eh?
























































